Wednesday, 24 May 2017

C S Lewis and a Fox Hunt

C S Lewis was fond of concealing things at times, apparently, for instance the planetary basis of the Narnia series - each book represents symbolically one of the seven medieval planets, i.e. the ones visible to the naked eye.

In the introductory section of the book Planet Narnia, where Michael Ward is demonstrating that concealment, while not necessarily a defining characteristic of C S Lewis' character, was something he sometimes practiced, the discoverer of this surprising allegorical underpinning of the Narnia series Michael Ward points out an instance of C S Lewis telling a lie.

Apparently there was a fox hunt and C S Lewis deliberately misled them:

'He cupped his hands and shouted to the first riders, "Hallo, yoicks, gone that way," and pointed to the direction opposite to the one the fox had taken. The whole hunt followed his directions.'

A rather endearing lie, if you ask me.

Thursday, 4 May 2017

Transgender Reversal

This is an exceedingly interesting article. Zahra, a New Zealand girl, transitioned to Zane, then decided to go back. It's not so easy, apparently -

Sunday, 30 April 2017

Sitting by the shore

I know it's rather gauche to mention one's own dreams, but this poem came out of my dream tonight.

Sitting by the shore

I was sitting by the shore
Watching you, waiting for more
But the things they said made you doubt me
They said my motives were a sin
They shut me out, you shut me in
And the conversation went on without me.

They stole my words, you closed the door,
I was left beside the shore,
With little more than memories about me.
There was no way I could win,
Stuck on the outside looking in,
As the conversation went on without me.

Yet winds they have a way of changing
And days they have a habit of rearranging
The perspective that you thought you knew.
With failing hope, you'll find you're looking in
The wrong end of the telescope,
Then you'll be me and I'll be you.

You'll be sitting by the shore
Watching me, wishing for more.
You could have come, but they made you doubt you
You shut yourself out in the end
There you'll be, waiting, looking in
As the conversation goes on without you.

(is this what I want to have happen? No. ) 

Wednesday, 19 April 2017

Funny Parody

There are some very funny satires on this YouTube channel, LutheranSatire. This is one of them.

Sunday, 16 April 2017


If grief was all I would be sad.
If not for this: that God shows me
A glimpse of what is yet to be!
In the light of Jesus Christ, I see,
So I am glad, and praise the Lord
Christ is Truly Risen! Alleluia

If human will was all I'd grieve
If not for this: that Jesus died
And rose again up from the grave!
We will one day rise like Jesus Christ
So I am glad, and praise the Lord
Christ is Truly Risen! Alleluia

Songs without words

Song without words

~~~~~~~in temporal order, this was first:

Tuesday, 28 March 2017

Forgiveness is the sign of a Christian

For a long time in my life I've wondered, what is the true sign that I am a Christian? How do I know that I really am a Christian?

Is it having had a conversion experience? Is it speaking in tongues? Is it praying to or worshipping Jesus? Is it belonging to a particular church?

During Bible study tonight I realised what it was - the realisation came when John was talking about forgiveness as the most important thing - he made it clear - forgiveness is the sign of a true Christian!

If I can truly forgive people who have wronged me from the heart, then I know experientially that I belong to Jesus, who also forgives.

Forgiveness is wonderful too - it frees us from the past - far better than the 'closure' that seeing vengeance wrought upon the person who has wronged us can do. Having forgiven people who wronged us, the past painful events no longer have power over us - they are simply in the past, and a glorious peace, the peace which passes understanding, is over those events.

For the thing forgiveness does is it brings peace to our hearts - the peace of the knowledge that we are also forgiven by God. No one can truly experience God's peace until they have forgiven everyone who has wronged them.

Saturday, 18 March 2017

A Connection across the Sea

I got one of those fraudulent calls today, from India. The lady said, "I'm from Telstra, and I'm ringing up about your internet connection and your computer." I knew it was fraudulent because I'm not with Telstra.
Before I answered I prayed inwardly that God would give me His words*.
Then I said, "God loves you."
After a long pause she said, "What?"
I said, "God loves you."
She repeated, "What?" I could tell she was completely flabbergasted.
I said, "Jesus died for you on the cross because he loves you, even though you are a lying, thieving fraudster who is just trying to steal people's money. He died for your sins, because He loves you, even though you are a wicked person, just as he died for me, even though I am a wicked person too. Jesus loves you and wants to save you from that lifestyle and out of that situation where you are doing such evil things all the time. All you have to do is give your life to Him and He will save you."
She was silent for a long time. Then I said, "Do you want me to pray for you?"
She said "Yes."
I prayed something like, "Lord God, please save this lady and accept her into your kingdom. You love her. Please rescue her and help her to realise that You died for her sins and love her and Your blood was shed for her, to save her. I'm praying all these things in Jesus' name, Amen."
She said, "Thankyou," then after a long time, "What is your profession?"
I said, "I don't want to give you any information because you might still be trying to defraud me. But I will pray for you."
She said, "Please pray for me."
I said, "Alright. What is your name?"
She told me a Western name.
I said, "Is that just the name you use for these phone calls? Please tell me your real name."
She told me her real nama and she said, "Can I talk to you again?"
I said, "Ring me any Saturday and I'll talk to you. In the meantime I will pray for you."
Please pray for her, readers. I have put her name on my fridge, to remind me to pray for her! I wonder if she will ring me back?

*Added this afterwards to clarify.
**Special Note - some cynical atheists will say religion exploits people's fears. But it's fine for someone who's comfortable, plush existence allows them to dull the voice of their conscience, to allay and push into the background any thought of the sins and wrongs they have done. But for people who are forced into sinful, rotten lives by economic necessity, the gospel is fantastic, wonderful news. For someone who cannot see a way out of the spiderweb, the lies, the sin and selfishness their life is trapped in, the gospel about Jesus' forgiveness is life from death and water to the parched and thirsty soul.

Monday, 13 March 2017

Broken SmartPhone = An Epiphany.

My brother in law accidentally broke my mobile!

It was a blessing. I was playing piano for a rehearsal tonight, and how relaxing it was without the smart-phone. In weeks past I often would read a kindle book in the breaks while the conductor was talking to the choir, so as not to waste time, & to avoid the temptation to fiddle on the keyboard. But now I was just doing one thing, playing the piano, and it reminded me of the old days, without mobile phones.

In that moment I had an epiphany. Long before I even had a mobile phone, my idol had been, "Don't waste time." Or, to fill in the principle more fully, "Don't waste a moment, because life is short, and you don't know how long you have left in this world." A kind of philosophy that had become a sort of desperate Stoic panic for me. (And how wonderful an aid a phone is for following this philosophy! You can use a smart-phone to fill in those 'wasted' moments with reading more books, emails, blogs, news, checking the time, etc etc. ) I don't think I'm exaggerating in saying that it was an idol, a false god. It was the principle that ruled my life, the idea that enslaved me completely.

But the fact is, if I have faith, I can trust God with my time.

If I am in the centre of God's will, trusting in Jesus, I will have time enough for everything that God wants me to do. In other words, there doesn't need to be a panic to fit everything in - God has his own times for things - and for whatever he has planned for me, I will have enough time to do that.

What a blessing! Thank God my brother in law broke my phone!

Saturday, 11 March 2017

The Chinese character for Wolf 狼.

Chinese characters actually are little pictures, joined together, each part has a meaning.

The chinese character for wolf is quite evocative:

Is is composed of three radicals (parts) 
犭dog or beast
艮 stillness

A wolf is a dog or creature that you see like a dot in the distance, in stillness.

New strategy - Steam Submarine completely free.

I'm trying a new strategy on Smashwords for a little while - giving away the whole Steam Submarine series (which is available as a single book on Amazon) completely for free as ebooks. I don't know how this will go, but I feel that giving away the first book in a series for free and not the others might irritate readers and make them less likely to buy other books. ...whilst giving the whole series for free might be such a positive experience it convinces the readers to spend money on my other books...

It is a decision I've made in response to reading the following post (alright it's 4 years old but still relevant I think...)

 Steam Submarine 

Please note it is likely to take a little while for the price change to filter through to the Apple iBookstore and other vendors...

Up to date.

Currently I'm working on quite a few different projects - several non-fantasy books that I will probably publish under a different name, the genre is thriller, perhaps Christian thriller, actually.

Also, the Chronicles of Marwe, a story about a young homeless girl set in the same world as my first three novels, the Gryphonomicon Histories.

Also, the audiobook of the Henry Lawson books is being edited as well at the moment.

Should have more news soon.

Interesting video

Sunday, 5 March 2017

Paper Genders.

Reading another book by Walt Heyer, the man who went through transgender surgery, then transitioned back and ended up getting married to a woman. This book, Paper Genders, is about the purported research behind the transgender phenomenon.

Walt Heyer recounts the history of research into sexuality (Alfred Kinsey and his successors) and unnecessary psychophysical surgery (starting with lobotomies in the early 20th century) and it is a shocking indictment, a history of unnecessary butchery and perverse ideas. You really have to read the book to believe it, and it is well researched and appropriately footnoted.

What really is shocking is that while transgender surgery is touted as the answer to gender dysphoria, yet what is obvious is that other, underlying problems that cause the gender dysphoria to manifest remain untreated. The suicide rate after surgery is very high, and suicide clearly occurs in cases where there is no bullying and only expressions of support from other people, which indicates that it is not the social stigma or bullying but the operation itself/and/or the underlying, untreated mental illness which causes the suicide.

The shocking facts in the book keep coming. The post-operative fate of over 90% of transgenders is unknown, because they lose touch with their doctors. The post-operative attempted suicide rate is 41%, far greater than the general population.

Anyone interested in where we are heading as a society and the truth about what we are told about transgenderism ought to read this book, Paper Genders, by Walt Heyer. Too often these days we are only exposed to one side of an argument, when the other side of any argument sometimes has merit, and sometimes is actually a devastating critique. Truth is truth, facts are facts, but we live in a post-truth world, where unfortunately the simple fact of which gender someone is, a genetically verifiable fact, is being allowed to be swallowed up in lies and propaganda. (Intersex, a medical condition where someone has aspects of both genders, is a completely different condition, btw.)

Tuesday, 24 January 2017

A Strange series of Links.

Interesting article and corresponding study - the possible link between autism and gender dysphoria.

~ ~ ~ ~

A Bible verse for today: 

Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free
John 8:32 

Tuesday, 17 January 2017

You're my inspiration.

Even though it all seems so far away and long ago
I just have to think of you and let the inspiration flow.
The thought that such-and-such might give you pleasure
Turns the work of composition into leisure.

Saturday, 14 January 2017

More Transgender Madness.

Some interesting articles.

I'm putting this online on the off chance that the 0.03% of the population with these sorts of obsessions might read it and get the help they need, which is not affirmation of their chosen gender - the more people act out on their obsessions the more power the obsession has.

The greatest help (as Walt Heyer affirms) is Jesus.

No way do I want anyone to mock or bully transgender people.

Walt Heyer in particular is speaking from a position of experience and his biography is also well worth reading.

This is the cover they are talking about - a ten year old boy who identifies as female. While this boy's situation is of course sad, and no one wants a world in which he is bullied or ridiculed if he goes to school etc like that, nonetheless I think it is clear from Walt Heyer's article that this transition will not deliver on what has been promised psychologically speaking, which means a whole lot of people are being duped, including most of us. 

I once had a nightmare that the gay and lesbian Mardi Gras parade had turned into a giant  multicoloured Rhinoceros that was trampling on children and young people. Shades of Eugene Ionesco, perhaps... It seems to have intuited symbolically the true situation.

Wednesday, 11 January 2017

Rogue One .

What a brilliant movie! 5 stars.

At last a sequel has captured the magic of episodes 4, 5 and 6, which were of course the first Star Wars movies to be made.

Apart from the ever-more-wonderful special effects, appealing characters and sporadic humour (the droid is specifically quite funny in places) there is something in this movie that one often finds lacking in many of today's cynical entertainments, where every character is corrupt and damaged and 'in it for themselves'; in Rogue One there is a real take home message about redemption, what goodness and hope really mean and what it is to be part of something larger than oneself.

A truly positive movie that celebrates hope and the meaning of true heroism.

Thursday, 5 January 2017

How to Cripple your sense of self.

How to Completely Cripple your sense of self:

1) Don't do what social pressure says not to do (Even though you know it is right/what God wants you to do.)
2) Do what social pressure says to do (Even though you know it is wrong/what God does not want you to do.)

(These methods of crippling self are both true even when the social pressure is apparently telling you to do something that 'society' disapproves of, or not to do something that 'society' approves of.  For that's the modern illusion - that by somehow rebelling against status quo you are actually achieving the opposite of crippling your sense of self by bowing to society's pressure, when those who are saying 'rebel with us' are quite simply creating their own mini-status-quo. Then you have the situation today, for when everyone is rebelling, no one is rebelling. )

& How To Strengthen your Sense of Self: 

Give up your self to Jesus. Quite simply, let Him be King over your entire life. Let His word be your guide-book, let Him guide you Himself.

"For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it." Matthew 16:25

What I Cannot Do.

I cannot be the light for you
But I can point the way
I cannot be the truth for you
But "Jesus" is all that I can say.

I cannot (myself) be life to you
Let Jesus be your living bread
I cannot earn forgiveness for you,
But Jesus died! (Rejoice! For He is no longer dead!)

I cannot always be there for you
Though I really, really wanted to
But while, for me, there is still day
I can wait and stay
I can wait and stay

What Love Means.

(A sonnet)

Love means I love you, though you believe a lie
Yet still I'd die for you to know the truth
Love means I love you though they all ask "why?"
I stretch my arms out, sacrifice my last breath of youth.

Sing, bird, sing, of all your sorrows, sing,
Yet even so, what sorrows you? What do you know?
You grieve because they clipped your exuberant wing!
You wanted to fly but they all told you, no, stay low.

You listened to the lies they told you, my owl so wise,
When they said once this way, always this way,
And now you still think any other would be compromise
Yet you yourself think differently from all the things they say.

There is but One who can help, yes, true! Not me.
Let Jesus' light enlighten thee. Then truth will set you free.

Wednesday, 4 January 2017

With God Is The One Safe Place.

It's just something I was thinking about. With God is the one safe place.

Quite a few passages in the Bible say this. (a sampling below)

Also, (at the bottom of the article) Charles Slack about God's cure for depression. Might be good to read for anyone going through depression.

Some Bible verses about Safety: 

The Lord is my light and my salvation -
whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my life -
of whom shall I be afraid?
Psalm 27:1 

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.
Deuteronomy 31:6

But the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen you and protect you from the evil one.
2 Thessalonians 3:3 

Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.”
Psalm 91:1-2    
You are my hiding place;
you will protect me from trouble
and surround me with songs of deliverance.
Psalm 32:7                              
God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble.
Psalm 46:1  
In peace I will lie down and sleep,
for you alone, Lord,
make me dwell in safety.
Psalm 4:8                                                                                                                                                        
You will keep in perfect peace
those whose minds are steadfast,
because they trust in you.
Isaiah 26:3        
The Lord is good,
a refuge in times of trouble.
He cares for those who trust in him.
Nahum 1:7        
It is better to take refuge in the Lord
than to trust in humans.
Psalm 118:8      
Sing to God, sing in praise of his name,
extol him who rides on the clouds;
rejoice before him — his name is the Lord.
A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows,
is God in his holy dwelling.
Psalm 68:4-5    
Truly he is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.
Psalm 62:2   
The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed,
a stronghold in times of trouble.
Psalm 9:9                                                                                                                                               

Monday, 2 January 2017

God Comforts.

Good 1st January sermon from Dale Appleby at St Mark's Bassendean

Note (added just after posting) what this sermon is saying is that Jesus' presence is safety and comfort.

Identity and how Shallow it really is.

Identity problems are a red herring.

Let's hypothesise that a particular person is trying to work out their true identity - such a person in the more distant past might have said, am I supposed to be a nun or a monk, or get married and live a conventional life?

Or in the sixties - should I join the commune? Should I become a hippie? Or should I join a company like Dad or get married like Mum and live a conventional life?

In the eighties and nineties, should I opt out of the big career goals or go for the whole money-making conventional package? I need to 'find myself' was what people said.

Today for some young people the question becomes, am I male or female? A different fixation from the past. But an identity problem nonetheless that shares some characteristics with the others. (Doctors now say it comes out of childhood trauma - but perhaps the others do too, to some degree, who knows?)

All of these identity problems result in a person choosing one or the other - the new identity or the old - conformity to parents' way of life or leaving home and apparently becoming someone new.

In fact, in the past it has often been best for someone to choose the one that results in the journey away from the parents, only to discover, ultimately, that they are still the same person, whether at home with Mum and Dad, or in the commune / opting out of the career / being a nun or monk / peeling off the layers of the onion.

The fact is, having taken that step away they know that despite having left the nest, they are really the same person they were anyway, and they become more charitable towards others and the world, from the realisation that we can't really change ourselves simply by changing our circumstances. It was all an illusion anyway - you peel off the layers of the onion and what if eventually you find there's nothing at the centre?

The one who never leaves the nest never knows, whether they would have been the same person or not.

I think that's part of the crisis of the prodigal son's elder brother. He never leaves home. He never really becomes his own person. The younger son is able to love because he makes that break, he goes off to seek his fortune.

Of course it's not so simple when the 'leaving home' could result in a bodily change so drastic it's irreversible.

But the thing is - what all these crises often obscure is a deeper crisis about love and about sin and about conformity and about God. Sometimes the real question is about this: do I follow my parents' pathway through life? Or do I follow God's pathway? (Such a question when suppressed can manifest as the different more trivial question when not faced consciously, i.e. do I become a monk? Do I change gender?)

The really crippling thing that parents can do to their children is to enforce their prejudices and blind spots about people on them. A person can believe they are 'leaving home' but quite often they take their parents' lack of love towards particular people or groups of people with them. 

Since lack of love is essentially what abiding sin is (he who is forgiven much, loves much, Jesus said - note Jesus' forgiveness is the solution here) the young person who takes their parents' prejudices and hatreds and judgement and depersonalisation of others with them never really leaves home at all. Changing life circumstances, even changing genders, will not change the fact that they are still conforming to the old patterns of behaviour.

The awareness of this sin, lack of love towards others, pushed into the subconscious, becomes a motivation for trying to change one's skin (life circumstances, surroundings, appearance, social standing, even gender) - in essence like Edmund (who himself never leaves his parents' prejudices and sins behind and consequently becomes a dragon in Narnia) - but at the end of the day, only by turning to God and letting Him change us can we become a new person.

Only Aslan (Jesus) can rip off the old skin and make someone new.

Even when we have very good parents who are loving towards others, it is really necessary to take on Christ for oneself. It's not enough just to come from a Christian background - everyone has to become a new creation in Christ and the only way to do that is by turning to God.  (Added after)

Changes in location, appearance, social role, none of these will make someone into a new person. Even something as drastic as gender surgery will not make someone into a new person. Only the person whom God changes on the inside becomes a new person. Ask Him for this change today if you haven't experienced it! 

Of course, this really, truly drastic inner change only becomes possible when a person is so desperate that they are at heart willing to hear and follow the call of God wherever it leads- to be willing to leave home, parents, family, village, lands, brothers and sisters, for the sake of Jesus and the gospel. To be willing to entrust one's life fully into God's hands. To be willing to take up one's cross and follow Jesus. (In Edmund's case, he must be willing to submit himself to Aslan)

Ultimately, to be willing to submit oneself completely to Jesus, and to trust Him completely.

To conform to social convention in that situation rather than follow God and seek God's transformation is to cripple oneself, to become the elder brother in the prodigal son story, someone who obeys out of duty, but someone who never really learns what it means to love others.

Here is the story of someone who traded the sorrows of trying to become someone/something different, in the most drastic sense, for joy, by giving his life to Jesus.

(note - 2 jan 2017 a few changes on this one.  )

Sunday, 1 January 2017

God's Love.

When the world was languishing in darkness and sin 
Jesus our Emmanuel was born 
To be a light to human hearts within
And to comfort those who languish and mourn 
He came to earth that Christmas day 
To save the lost and the ones that stray 
To strengthen the weak and the ones who seek 
And to give the earth to the small and the meek. 

To the nation who knew not their Father above 
Jesus our Saviour was born of old
To show them all the Father's truth and love
And to bring home the wanderers back to the fold
He came to be a shepherd that day 
To save the lost and the ones that stray 
To strengthen the weak and the ones who seek 
And to give the earth to the small and the meek. 

And the star that heralded Jesus' birth 
By the child in a manger was outshone 
There is no greater light on this earth 
That this child who was God's one and only Son
He came to earth that Christmas day 
To save the lost and the ones that stray 
To strengthen the weak and the ones who seek 
And to give the earth to the small and the meek. 

When you find that your life's reached it's lowest place 
And you're feeding the pigs in a pigsty somewhere 
And you know that you've misused your Father's grace 
And you long to fill your stomach with the pods 
That you're feeding the pigs and there's nothing for you there 
Turn around and go home, and say, "Father I've sinned 
I'm no longer worthy to be called your son"
Before you've finished you'll find that it's true: 
God in his love is embracing you. 

Saturday, 31 December 2016

Habit, Sin and Spirit.

Thinking about habits, habits of thought, habits of desire. Good time to do that, New Year's Eve, when we are about to make ineffectual vows to change something or other.

Habits are simple and mechanical in operation. People think human nature is complicated in this respect but it isn't. Whatever makes us 'feel better', is what will make us feel better in the future. Like laying down a track through the weeds that makes it easier to walk that same pathway in the future.

That's how people get started on any number of unhealthy tracks that they find themselves on, gambling, drinking, porn, sexual infidelity, anger, lust, drugs, in fact, satisfying any hunger or desire in an unhealthy way. Once someone finds a way to scratch that itch, they will want to scratch it again later, but it just takes more scratching each time to get the same effect (that's how people end up going down and down). Yes, different people have different temptations, genetics, upbringing have something to do with that, but the way sin happens is the same every time - it starts with crossing a line of conscience or upbringing, and feeling better afterwards because the itch has been scratched.

But what makes us into complicated people is the baggage we get with this desire/behaviour/desire cycle - shame, principally. So then we try to forget, either suppress the shame or the remembrance of the action, or both. We try to deny that this habit controls us. We say such-and-such is not a sin. We vow not to do it again. The different ways people deal with this is what makes people different I guess.

But one way or another, everyone becomes slaves to that which controls them.

This is human nature and was described this way by St. Paul:

14We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!
So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God’s law, but in my sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.   Romans 7:14-25

St. Paul goes on to describe the solution that Christ won for us by dying on the cross:

1Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death. For what the law was powerless to do because it was weakened by the flesh, God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh to be a sin offering. And so he condemned sin in the flesh, in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the flesh but according to the Spirit.
Those who live according to the flesh have their minds set on what the flesh desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace. The mind governed by the flesh is hostile to God; it does not submit to God’s law, nor can it do so. Those who are in the realm of the flesh cannot please God.
You, however, are not in the realm of the flesh but are in the realm of the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, they do not belong to Christ. But if Christ is in you, then even though your body is subject to death because of sin, the Spirit gives life because of righteousness. And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies because of his Spirit who lives in you.
Therefore, brothers and sisters, we have an obligation—but it is not to the flesh, to live according to it. For if you live according to the flesh, you will die; but if by the Spirit you put to death the misdeeds of the body, you will live.
For those who are led by the Spirit of God are the children of God. The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship.f And by him we cry, “Abba, Father.” The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.  Romans 8:1-15

Here is the amazing thing - God has so much more in store for us than anything we suffer. And being 'spiritual' is not just being happy or being 'fulfilled' - it sometimes means, groaning under the weight of our difficulties, our sorrows, in our weakness, but the Spirit groans in us and intercedes for us. The amazing thing is, for a Christian, God our Father is with us in Christ in this messy world, whatever happens.

I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. For the creation waits in eager expectation for the children of God to be revealed. For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the freedom and glory of the children of God.
We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption to sonship, the redemption of our bodies. For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.  Romans 8:16-30

How To Get Out of a Dark Hole.

Just read a pretty good book - Bill Myers' The Dark Side of the Supernatural. 

Here's the link to the Australian kindle store if that's where you buy stuff.

Very good to read to understand what is of God, and what isn't, in the supernatural world.

Something I'm thinking about at the moment - how can people get out of the dark holes they get themselves into? (Despair, depression, mental illness, etc, etc)

Only one way I know of - Jesus Christ.

He is the Light of the World.

Anyone who asks Him for help, guidance, light in their life, will find the help they need.

It's really that simple.

Saturday, 24 December 2016

How Postmodernism Becomes A Tool For Maintaining the Status Quo.

When a postmodernist examines an article or opinion the first question he asks is, "Who wrote this? Whose opinion is it?" Following this, the postmodernist says to himself, "What position are they coming from? Why do they take this position?"

"Oh," s/he says to her/himself, "This person has a vested interest."

This then becomes a reason for being suspicious of the person's reasoning. The vested interest, prior position (Christian, white male, being middle class, working for the oil industry once, etc etc) delegitimises that person's argument, before they have even said anything.

When people believed that it was possible to argue about things rationally in a free society, this would have been called an 'ad hominem attack,' one of the standard logical fallacies. 'Ad hominem', 'against the man' in latin, means to argue that a person's position is wrong because of the person. To be logical one must argue against the logic of what they are saying, rather than who they are or what group they come from.

What this kind of postmodernist rhetoric does (in the name of truth) is makes democracy impossible: if you can't argue a point from logic agreeing that the other person might be just as right as you are, if you are saying, "this person cannot be logical because they are a member of a particular social group" - then you may as well stand there singing 'la la la la' with your hands in your ears as have a conversation where you try to get at truth, or an argument where you try to convince others (i.e. democracy) if you have already decided that whatever they say is influenced by their 'vested interest' and is therefore not worth listening to.

Thursday, 22 December 2016

The Turing Test.

A follow on from my previous post...

The Turing Test is a test invented by the mathematician Alan Turing in a paper published in 1950 in Mind. He is approaching the question, "Can Machines Think?"

Here is an excerpt from this paper:

1. The Imitation Game
I propose to consider the question, "Can machines think?" This should begin with definitions of the meaning of the terms "machine" and "think." The definitions might be framed so as to reflect so far as possible the normal use of the words, but this attitude is dangerous, If the meaning of the words "machine" and "think" are to be found by examining how they are commonly used it is difficult to escape the conclusion that the meaning and the answer to the question, "Can machines think?" is to be sought in a statistical survey such as a Gallup poll. But this is absurd. Instead of attempting such a definition I shall replace the question by another, which is closely related to it and is expressed in relatively unambiguous words.

The new form of the problem can be described in terms of a game which we call the 'imitation game." It is played with three people, a man (A), a woman (B), and an interrogator (C) who may be of either sex. The interrogator stays in a room apart front the other two. The object of the game for the interrogator is to determine which of the other two is the man and which is the woman. He knows them by labels X and Y, and at the end of the game he says either "X is A and Y is B" or "X is B and Y is A." The interrogator is allowed to put questions to A and B thus:

C: Will X please tell me the length of his or her hair?

Now suppose X is actually A, then A must answer. It is A's object in the game to try and cause C to make the wrong identification. His answer might therefore be:

"My hair is shingled, and the longest strands are about nine inches long."

In order that tones of voice may not help the interrogator the answers should be written, or better still, typewritten. The ideal arrangement is to have a teleprinter communicating between the two rooms. Alternatively the question and answers can be repeated by an intermediary. The object of the game for the third player (B) is to help the interrogator. The best strategy for her is probably to give truthful answers. She can add such things as "I am the woman, don't listen to him!" to her answers, but it will avail nothing as the man can make similar remarks.

We now ask the question, "What will happen when a machine takes the part of A in this game?" Will the interrogator decide wrongly as often when the game is played like this as he does when the game is played between a man and a woman? These questions replace our original, "Can machines think?"

He replaces this question with another question, "Can a machine fool a human into thinking the machine is conscious?"

The real question which most of these fictional stories about AIs answer in the affirmative, is, "Can a machine be created which actually is conscious?"

In fact, it is very hard to prove consciousness. No one really knows what it is. The only person one can be completely certain is conscious is oneself, when one is conscious. Believing others are conscious is actually an act of faith, in a sense.

The philosopher Alvin Plantinga in his book God and Other Minds 1967 proposed that belief in God was analogous to belief in other minds, both being apparent from evidence and fundamentally rational beliefs, but that neither belief in God nor belief in other minds could be conclusively proven against a determined sceptic.

Since we do not really know what consciousness is, how can we ever create it in a machine?

In other words, the Turing Test can never prove consciousness (Turing never claimed it could) it can only prove that a machine can be created that can imitate consciousness.

Tuesday, 20 December 2016

Robots, AI, and what consciousness is.

I've been watching HUMᗄNS, a BBC show, and also Westworld, on iTunes. Both are about AI androids who start exhibiting human characteristics. But the central premise on which these shows are based, that a machine that appears to be human actually is, is not really explained - it is simply assumed. The central premise is that same miracle in the Golem myth - that somehow a robot/machine/lump of clay can be given human/divine breath and made to live.

It started me thinking - the central characteristic of a human being is self-consciousness - I realised a long time ago that Descartes' fundamental basis for all of his philosophy of a Clockmaker universe, "I think therefore I am", is actually illusory - "I am" is the more fundamental realisation. That this realisation is possible for us is explained in Talmudic and Biblical teaching by God having breathed His life, a portion of His spirit (breath and spirit being the same word in Hebrew, neshamah) into us. In ontological terms, it follows, "I am, therefore I think". (i.e. The fact that I am is what causes me to be able to think)

A computer in its own way 'thinks' - the circuits bleep over and create a certain pattern - but the meaning of that pattern only becomes apparent to a human being. In fact, the meaning of any pattern requires a conscious being to see it, for it to have meaning. In other words, the genetic code is only the mechanics of a machine that orders the process that creates the body, but it must have been designed, because it is a construct involving symbolic meaning. i.e. it is a code - but strangely enough, the only living creatures who can see that it is a code are human beings (or other sentient beings, angels, God, aliens perhaps). The bacteria who benefits from this vastly clever piece of engineering cannot see that the DNA through which it comes into existence is a symbolic representation of the creature that comes into existence. (This awareness of symbolic pattern, by the way, is another aspect of self-awareness - the ability to discern the difference between signifier and signified - something post-modernism minimises by destroying that difference, being a system that attempts to treat human consciousness as analogous to a computer in an endless goto loop - which is precisely what consciousness is not. The Incompleteness Theorem of Kurt Gödel demonstrates that ultimately it takes a human being to discern when a theorem is self-referential, i.e., in an endless goto loop. Similarly, despite programmers putting in super-programs called daemons to monitor the program while it is running, and daemons to monitor the daemons, they still can't stop the computer from crashing from time to time, getting itself into an endless loop. You see, a machine is only a machine, but the Spirit of God is the Spirit of Truth. )

There are already dolls that talk to children, mobile phone 'personalities' (Siri), games that can hold conversations with us, and these can be programmed to have apparent feelings. I am sure Google eventually will become very good at extrapolating normal human emotions from the massive amounts of data they have collected about people - perhaps to the degree that they can eventually create an AI machine that can realistic imitate a human, and fool many people into thinking it is alive and conscious.

But if there is no centre to that creation, no part of it that can honestly say, "I am", then despite its apparent 'feeling', 'thought', even despite the fact that it might appear to have self-awareness, if there is no real self-consciousness, no divine spirit, then it is still nothing more than an artificial machine imitating human behaviour, something electronic, certainly, that really could just as well be made of cogs and wheels. We don't have to worry about offending it, hurting it, breaking it, sinning against it, except to the degree that we might be hurting its owners or ourselves by doing such things, just the same as any other machine. (Stealing a car is wrong, not because the car has feelings and sentience, but because the owner does. )

It seems to me that self-consciousness is spiritual, an effect of having a spirit. It is an exceptional thing for an animal to be able to recognise itself in a mirror. It is a normal thing for a human to be able to do so. Having feelings also, i.e. a soul, (nefesh) is a miracle in itself - only certain animals have this almost to a human degree - the higher mammals. But self-consciousness is uniquely human.

Some people, who insist that we are nothing more than machines ourselves, would say that the existence of self-awareness is an illusion. But the fact is, the grammar of their own statement shows how ludicrous this statement is: for there must be someone having an illusion, for it to be an illusion. If there is no self, if we are machines just as much as a computer is, then there can be no illusion at all, because there is no real person at the centre of it all who can be deceived.

I think self-consciousness in AIs is a problem that is insoluble to science. I really don't believe a human being can create another self-conscious being except through the usual methods (a sperm and an egg).

(In Henry Lawson Hero of the Robot Revolution, (*spoiler alert this paragraph*) of course, I solved the problem of the soul and spirit in AI machines in the narrative by giving them a soul, a spirit, that has been transferred from a human by some unexplained and drastically inhuman process. This is the only way I believe that AIs could be truly conscious, if a spirit could be transferred somehow from one vessel to the other. This in itself is a scary thought and is the main source of the horror in my novel, for anyone who has read it.)

In these shows (HUMᗄNS, Westworld, etc) the terrible thing that happens is that these AIs whom anyone with any human feeling can see are conscious, are being treated as impersonal machines, and they are fighting back. If this was possible it would indeed be terrible. It is the premise of many, many science fiction stories, from Frankenstein to Rossum's Universal Robots, to Blade Runner.

But no one yet has shown that it is possible to create a conscious machine, and no one yet has even shown us what consciousness is. A machine may be able to be created that can feign consciousness, but until this mystery can be solved (which I believe it cannot, precisely because self-consciousness is one aspect of the divine image in us, perhaps the main aspect, and this is a mystery) - until this mystery can be solved, we will never have to worry about offending, hurting, sinning against the machines in our lives. No, we should worry far more about hurting our fellow humans, and the other living creatures in our lives - a dog, after all, while not self-aware, does have genuine feelings (Nefesh) but a computer never will.

Friday, 9 December 2016

'Tis the Season to Consider the Checkout Staff.

Checkout Lady: I'm sorry you've been waiting.
Man at checkout: Don't worry! We all know that it's not your fault if there's congestion.
Checkout Lady: Well you're one in a million.
Man at checkout: We know it's those b*st*rds in Sydney in the head office in their Mercedes Benz's who're always cutting corners, not the checkout staff causing this problem.
Checkout Lady: Well, thank you for that! I've been working for fourteen hours and haven't even had lunch - I had one minute for my lunch break and didn't have time to eat anything. How's that for dedication? And I've got to supervise the stacking of the shelves, but I simply haven't had time because we're short staffed.
Man at checkout: Well that's okay, the main thing is you're doing your best and we all appreciate it.
Checkout Lady: You should be cloned!

Thursday, 17 November 2016

Darkness cannot drive out darkness, only light can do that.

This is a great picture:

From this excellent article:

My thought - there is no monopoly of righteousness on either the left or right of politics that gives anyone on either side the ability to drive out hatred with hatred. Because only love can drive out hate...

...This is a spiritual point, and my further thought on this is that only God can help us love those who hate us, forgive those who hurt us, respond kindly to those who set out to harm us.

Sunday, 13 November 2016

Where to get help when you need it.

I find life difficult at times. For a long time, I found mornings particularly difficult - just to get to work was a battle, just to get myself motivated for another day - but through all of that I've found a few things that help a lot, in getting through the day, getting through life. I'm telling you these because I am a fellow beggar, looking to find some food! And I want you to know where to find help too.

1) Call out to God, call out to Jesus, for help. God is real! He will hear your prayer.

 Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved (in the Bible 3 times - in Joel 2:32, Romans 10:13, and Acts 2:21) 

For that difficult period in my life, He heard my prayer for help and salvation every day, and he still does. But these days I find myself getting stronger:

Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:31

2) Understand that you are saved by faith in Jesus Christ, not by doing good works or balancing up the scales by achieving something. To really understand this, read Paul's epistle to the Romans, or Galatians gives the short version. In fact, all of Paul's letters in the Bible emphasize this fact, as do John's letters also in the New Testament.

3) Deal with sin by putting your trust in Jesus. Jesus' blood, shed for you on the cross, is all that can cleanse sin and the past from our lives. Pushing uncomfortable thoughts away, burying them, avoiding them, will not work, but faith in Jesus will.

4) Place your hopes on Jesus. Jesus' resurrection is what gives hope, ultimately, not anything else we can think or do or wish for or imagine or hope for. We can trust God for everything else!

Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4

5) Read the Bible. It really is God's word, and through the words of the Bible God is able to help you and speak to you. I can't emphasize this enough - God is a living God - and He can and will speak through this book that He caused to be written. He cares enough to speak to you personally. 

All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for instruction, for conviction, for correction, and for training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be complete, fully equipped for every good work. 2 Timothy 3:16-19 (Yes God wants us to do good works, but these are the result of our salvation, not the cause of it.)


Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path. Psalm 119:105

6) Talk to a wise counsellor - a Christian. Someone who will tell you points 1, 2, 3, 4 and 5! Someone who will guide you to follow in Jesus' way.

7) Love God with all your heart, soul, mind and strength and love your neighbour as yourself. Love is, after all, what it's all about.

God is love. 1 John 4:16

Gender Reassignment Surgery - the History.

In today's media, particularly in Australia, we tend to only get one point of view on many topics. For fear of hurting people's feelings or being labelled politically incorrect the media will avoid giving the other side of controversial topics.

This article, written by Walt Heyer, a man who had a sex-change operation, then deeply regretted it, should be required reading for anyone who is thinking of having sex-change surgery:

Here is his testimonial - a really troubled life.

His site would be good to read for anyone thinking of having such surgery:

Taking cross-sex hormones is also a health risk, causing things like high blood pressure, strokes and cancer (item 6 in the following)

Monday, 7 November 2016

Saturday, 5 November 2016

...and Even More Book Covers

And here are the two new Henry Lawson book covers, using an out-of-copyright image of Lawson from the New South Wales State Library as well as a copyright free image, from Darpa, of a robot (!) (not meaning to imply any endorsement by Darpa) (But those Darpa robots are pretty freaky.) 

Photoshop really makes this sort of thing so easy...

And the new Talon of Destiny book cover, below, using the picture from the previous blog post. 

New book covers for the Fantasy and Alternate History Collection!

 New book covers for the Fantasy and Alternate History Collections, featuring Aerae, the half-elven Princess. 

I based them on this rather lovely, very out-of-copyright picture of Miss Maude Fealy.  Simply inserted her face into my pre-existing image of Aerae, which was on the cover of Talon of Destiny. Thankyou Photoshop for making this possible! 

Wednesday, 28 September 2016


Panorama of the Lockridge Bush (click on it to see the whole thing)

I've removed quite a few posts. Rethinking some things again! Going back to writing.

Tuesday, 27 September 2016


Love is at the heart of the Christian gospel. 

God is love - no one can go past that. 

Sunday, 29 May 2016


The TV series based on the Stephen King book, 11-22-63, about the Kennedy Assassination 22nd November 1963, is, strangely enough, a beautifully romantic tale about what love really means, as well as a great adventure/thriller about trying to prevent one of the more horrible events of the 20th century.

The premise of the story is stated in the first five minutes or so. Al Templeton, owner of a local diner, tells history teacher Jake Epping to go into the wardrobe in his diner. Jake resists at first, but Al's friendship is enough to convince him to go in.

Jake discovers that there is a time portal inside the wardrobe that goes back in time to 1960. He returns and Al tells him that he has been trying to prevent the Kennedy Assassination, but that he's out of time and he needs Jake to take over.

Armed with a book full of sporting stats that in 1960 haven't happened yet, a fake identity, and a few other objects that are going to prove useful as well as a list of facts about the Kennedy Assassination, Jake goes back in time to prevent it from happening.

In order not to spoil the story for you I won't tell you what happened after that! But it is a brilliant, logical story in so many ways.

But the 1960s are realised really wonderfully, the scenery I presume with the aid of computer graphics and some live sets, but it is all very seamless. And the acting and the dialogue combine to give what seemed to me to be a very realistic portrait of that era in America.

As you may already know, the 22nd of November 1963 was not only the day Kennedy was assassinated, but the day CS Lewis and Aldous Huxley died as well, strangely enough. And so I thought it was interesting that Stephen King had his character go backwards in time through what was essentially a wardrobe, although perhaps it's identified as a broom cupboard in the story. Is this a small homage to CS Lewis? Who knows; it really doesn't matter anyhow. Just thought it was interesting, that's all.

Monday, 23 May 2016

Jesus shall save his people from their sins

This great sermon by the African American preacher D J Ward, mentioned in John Yates' article (link at the bottom): 

The description of the video: "The death of Christ was an accomplishment, and our works cannot add to Christ's death. In this video, Elder D.J. Ward, the late pastor of Main Street Baptist Church in Lexington, K.Y., powerfully reminds us of the sufficiency of Christ's death for all who turn to him in repentance and faith."

And John Yates' recent reflections on it: 

I read somewhere that there is little difference between the pagan clutching at idols and people who rely on religion or conscience or good deeds to save them - Jesus' salvation is on a different order, it is not something we have to do, it is complete, He has done everything for us, we can rest in what He has accomplished.